Droog en skaamteloos soos ‘n woestyn
Het ek geraamteloos verdwyn
Agter jou albaster oë.
Ek kan sien
Hoe die holte en die oorloop
Van ‘n leeftyd se hoop en verlang
Jou skielik vang.
En so raak ek verlore
Tussen die miriade woorde
Wat jy nie verby
Jou lippe kan kry.
I tried to recall the rhyme our bodies made
As we laid under the setting moon
And you hummed the tune
Of an old cartoon
Your whispers made me weak
Your words set me free
Under a star-filled canopy
Love appeared to me
In the shade of a tree
The poetry in our sighs
Could’ve won a Nobel prize
Your three fingers on my thigh
In the form a C chord -
A Grammy award
Our friction wrote a dictionary
You made me feel less ordinary
You were my best
And I still believe your chest
Was made to fit my cheek
But now we don’t even speak
You left before the week
Was over
The four-leafed clover
That I found in my hair
Never warned me it was to be a rebound affair
I was cheated out of luck
In the end it was just
To help you pretend
That the woman you went home to
Hadn’t forgotten how to love you
But in trying to erase
The pain you still had to face
You hurt me instead
Well, you’re still in my head
You’re on my lips, my tongue, my hips
I’ve washed, I’ve scrubbed, I’ve shaved
But I still crave your hands, your smile
You made my life worthwhile
The memory of your breath
Has made me blind
Now all I have is death on my mind
Unabridged
On a bridge
I stare at the cars below
I dare myself to swallow
My pointless expectation
I feel a sense of elation
As my feet leave the foundation
I lift my empty hands to the sky
I’m done asking why
I just wish I could’ve known
A little more about you
It might have helped me live
A life without you
My onderklere lê versprei
‘n Weerkaatsing van my
Twee g-strings in die cubby-hole
‘n Push-up in my handsak
Daars ‘n pantie oor die spiëlkas
En ‘n sykous opgevromel in my agterste broeksak
Waar is ek veronderstel om jou tussen in te vind?
I didn’t mean
To weep into your tea
I just wanted a piece of me
Inside you
I not quite sure why
I cried into your stir-fry
Maybe it was dry
And needed salt
It’s not my fault
I didn’t mean to wail
Into your ice-cream
And share my dreams
With a frozen milk dessert
But do you know
How much hurts
Everytime I think if Key Lime pie?
And how you said goodbye
Between bites
Its not right
But I can’t untie
Your noose from around my neck
And god knows I’ve tried
Not to think
About having anything to drink
I’ve tried to go off food
But it doesn’t do me any good
You made me feel less ordinary
Your caresses were legendary
You were the cherry
On top of my Sundae
But I guess I always knew
You’d leave someday
Its true – I always bite off
More than I can chew
I choose you
To be the casserole
Of my soul
I wanna take our lovin’
And stick it in the oven
And turn it up to 220 degrees
Cover it in cheese
And let it bake
I want it to get stuck between you teeth
Show up as a chocolate beneath
You pillow
And watch you grow
Kilo by kilo
My skin still retains the heat of your breath
As you recited Macbeth
Into my hair
It’s not fair
That all I am is the vibration of your words
Against my breast as you confessed
And now your sudden escape from our life is causing dischord
Your side of the bed still remembers your shape
And I can still hear your voice in my pillow
Its coming through the walls, billowing the curtains, relentlessly it calls
The willow in the back has been weeping leaves on the ground
Remembering the sound of you mumbling in your sleep
Or how you used to pray the lord your soul to keep
Nothing wants to grow
Not since you had to go
The change of the season
Is just not enough reason
To exist without your protection
The weathervane has lost direction
Its pointing up at heaven.
The sundial is stuck at a quarter to seven.
And your laughter resounds in the silences between my screams
The volume of you keeps adjusting itself in my dreams
I’ve seen a trace of your ghost on my face
Dulling my complexion
I’ve seen a reflection of you in my tea
The memory of your name hurts my lips
While my fingers struggle coming to grips
With grasping emptiness
You were my country, my planet, my undiscovered star
You were my pain before death, my colour of rain, my smoky midnight bar
You sold my ability to hold any other person close
You’ve put back the worry in my smile
And the wrinkles that were gone for a while
You’ve darkened my skies
Set free my butterflies
And I remain in a cage devoid of my senses
Cradling a souvenir of your lies and pretences
I was the shadow attached to your feet
And whether you’d walk, run or dance
I’d always keep your beat
Its dark in here
And hollow
It’s empty
With no one to follow
You plagiarised
The shape of my eyes
And you took away the taste of your love
From my lips
You even dissolved your fingerprints
From my hips
Can you stop
The never-ending cycle
Of my heart breaking?
Can you cease
This unrelenting chaos
Your absence has been creating?
I found her sitting motionless. Like a rock in the wind.
I didn’t look forward to seeing her again. But I went to her because I knew she was suffering. I also knew only I could alleviate it, albeit temporarily. Getting to her was like walking though a maze. But I could always smell their skin for kilometers.
